This is going to be my year!

I have had a very exciting week. I went on that job interview on Friday. It went so well! The Assistant Principal was such a sweetheart! We talked and she looked over my teaching portfolio. She loved it! As I was leaving she told me I interview very well and I am on a great path. She told me candidates would hear back in about a month. Well on Monday my phone rang…I GOT THE JOB!!!! I am now a per diem substitute teacher! I can not explain how excited I am. I really did not think it was going to happen! I am sure there will be a lot of posts about my experiences being a sub.

I also went for one of the many required tests that I needed to have done for my weight loss surgery. I have a lot of different things that affect my ability to lose weight on my own one being P.C.O.S. to spare anyone the gory details I added a link. Basically my body has issues with my hormones. So once I gain weight it is kind of just stuck there. I have dieted and worked out and nothing seems to work so this is my last resort. It is a decision that I have made with the support of my family and a lot of doctors. I have been waiting for this surgery for almost 7 years. I hate the way I look and I am uncomfortable in my own skin. I have had people tell me that I am taking the easy way out but trust me there is nothing about this that is easy. I have opted for the sleeve gastrectomy They will basically be removing 80% of my stomach. I will be on a liquid diet for 3-4 weeks before surgery. After surgery I will be on a liquid diet for about 6 weeks then I can start introducing foods back into my body little by little. There are things I will have to avoid for the rest of my life. However I am extremely optimistic about it all!

I had my first test on Monday. It was psych evaluation I was so nervous because I hate having to talk about my feelings but my doctor was fabulous and made me feel really comfortable! Before I left he told me it is going to be my year. So I am going to keep this positive attitude going….THIS IS MY YEAR!

****Just a little note for everyone….I have an instagram account now check it out! (@babblingdani) I am also on twitter @BabblingDani***

The government owns me.

Well It is the time I have been dreading since I took out my first college loan. I just made my first student loan payment. I am owned by the creditors! I owe them about 8 times more than I made last year alone granted I was student teaching and going to school for the first half of the year so I made nothing… I am in the process of trying to lower my payments we will see what happens with that.There is so much red tape around college loans it is ridiculous. I am surprised I haven’t been asked for a urine sample and a blood test. They seem to know every detail of my life.

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I just applied to grad school (everything is officially in and I am just waiting for a response) I also submitted my FAFSA since I am obviously a broke post grad and can not even think about paying for school. I am basically forcing myself into more debt so I can put off paying the debt I already have. (YAY deferment!)

I wish I was handed a stack of money at graduation instead of a piece of paper that is proving to be completely useless right now… I also wish I had a money tree growing in the backyard…

So much to do….

So I am applying to grad school. This is a HUGE step for me…

For a long time I was toying with the idea of grad school. Did I really want to throw myself back into school and gather more debt? Do I really want to sit in a stuffy classroom listening to a professor who assumes that their view on a topic is the only correct view. I think mostly I was petrified of going back so I was throwing my anxiety onto something else. I do want to continue my education and I want to help change the lives of kids. I want to be better for myself. I also want to get back to doing work before I forget how much work goes into school… I may already be on that path a year out of school has made me seem so lazy. I was mostly putting off all of this because I was unsure of what I wanted to study.

One possibility was going for higher education and student affairs. Mostly because I loved my leadership roles while I was in college. It was such a different experience for me to work with incoming college freshman instead of little kids (although I learned that parents are the same no matter how old their kid is….).I am not completely going to forget about this it is something to fall back on and possibly turn to later in life.

The second was education (my bachelors is in education) Everything with common core curriculum kind of turned me off from education for a while. The idea of testing kids so much is disgusting. There is no flexibility or fun left in school. Teachers do not get tobe as creative and do not have the freedom to make a student love learning anymore. It is so horrible! However, the more I played with my options I realized I can play with these ideas a bit more. I can make learning fun. It is all about what the teacher does with the strict standards that are common core. A teacher can make it fun and play with different ideas. Maybe that is why I need to become a teacher. I need to help ensure that kids still love to learn.

So I have officially sent in an application for  a masters in special ed/childhood ed. I have to write my personal statement still but that will come together in time! I am crossing my fingers that everything works out!

I also got a phone call today. I am interviewing on Monday to be a sub! FINALLY a job offer!  (the best part was I did not even apply word of mouth got them my info!) So I am extremely nervous! This is such a great opportunity! Especially with grad school…I could work during the day and go to school at night. It would be a perfect situation.

Cross your fingers for me everyone!

The future scares me…

So tonight I went out to dinner with my mom and my 15 year old sister. As we are sitting in applebees I hear a conversation from the table behind me. There was a young boy (about 11 or 12) talking to his parents. They were talking about what they did during the day when suddenly a part of me died.

I got a HUGE slap in the face about how technology has changed childhood. The little boy told his parents that he had just watched a really weird movie called Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets have you ever heard of it? Both parents said no….My heart started to pound and I got sweaty. I think I may have had a small heart attack… I know I grew up during the height of Potter-Mania but to think that these kids had never heard of it is crazy!

Am I the only one who has ever experienced something like this? I am still in shock!