Hello my lovely babblers!
This post comes from my realization that I need to stop looking for a man so hard and enjoy life. Here is a series of why this realization came about…
So I am single. As single as I have been for the past 23 years of my life. I live in a constant state of being single. I am always the third wheel. I am the one who gets forgotten when my friends find their significant other. That is who I am and I get that. It is hard being the “big” girl in your group of friends. You constantly get pushed aside and forgotten. I have always dealt with it well. Or as well as can be imagined. However, there comes a point in your life where you just need to take a step back and realize that being alone kinda sucks. I am at the age where my friends are getting engaged and married. Some are even having kids. Here I am spending my Friday night on OkCupid.com or other dating sites that i gave in and wasted money on just trying to see if there could possibly be anyone out there for me.
I have had some success. I have met some great guys who I talk to for a few weeks until life gets in the way and we stop messaging or texting and that is that. I went on a date or two and that was that. It seems like there are a lot of duds out there. Not all are bad and I am not saying that but I cant seem to catch a good guy. If there are so many fish in the sea why do none of them bite for me?
I have decided to delete my accounts and just be me for a while. I think I need to take a step back. It is like people always say love will find you when you least expect it and maybe (hopefully) that will be soon. I suppose I need to stay positive. (advice on how to do that is welcomed!)
Before I delete these accounts I need to let everyone in on the joke that is OkCupid.com and the selection of men available. I included a screenshots of the initial message I received from one of the very horny guys. I wish I could pull up the instant messages he sent me because they were worse…..
That same guy was sending me instant messages telling me he wanted to “Fuck my brains out” I ignored them and let him keep going 45 messages after he told me he wouldn’t want to fuck me because I probably sucked in bed because everyone on this site does. Okay boy whatever you say! I hate when guys put their dick before their brains.
All accounts are now disabled. Now I get to wait to see what happens with my life. Wish me luck!