So I am applying to grad school. This is a HUGE step for me…
For a long time I was toying with the idea of grad school. Did I really want to throw myself back into school and gather more debt? Do I really want to sit in a stuffy classroom listening to a professor who assumes that their view on a topic is the only correct view. I think mostly I was petrified of going back so I was throwing my anxiety onto something else. I do want to continue my education and I want to help change the lives of kids. I want to be better for myself. I also want to get back to doing work before I forget how much work goes into school… I may already be on that path a year out of school has made me seem so lazy. I was mostly putting off all of this because I was unsure of what I wanted to study.
One possibility was going for higher education and student affairs. Mostly because I loved my leadership roles while I was in college. It was such a different experience for me to work with incoming college freshman instead of little kids (although I learned that parents are the same no matter how old their kid is….).I am not completely going to forget about this it is something to fall back on and possibly turn to later in life.
The second was education (my bachelors is in education) Everything with common core curriculum kind of turned me off from education for a while. The idea of testing kids so much is disgusting. There is no flexibility or fun left in school. Teachers do not get tobe as creative and do not have the freedom to make a student love learning anymore. It is so horrible! However, the more I played with my options I realized I can play with these ideas a bit more. I can make learning fun. It is all about what the teacher does with the strict standards that are common core. A teacher can make it fun and play with different ideas. Maybe that is why I need to become a teacher. I need to help ensure that kids still love to learn.
So I have officially sent in an application for a masters in special ed/childhood ed. I have to write my personal statement still but that will come together in time! I am crossing my fingers that everything works out!
I also got a phone call today. I am interviewing on Monday to be a sub! FINALLY a job offer! (the best part was I did not even apply word of mouth got them my info!) So I am extremely nervous! This is such a great opportunity! Especially with grad school…I could work during the day and go to school at night. It would be a perfect situation.
Cross your fingers for me everyone!